Saturday, November 21, 2009

Oh Xanax, Xanax, where are you when I need you...

Based on Wednesday's post about Crosby eating my jeans, I needed to face the music and get something age appropriate that actually fits and was not from a maternity line (the elastic waist bands were so forgiving and so comfortable). I woke up today in a panic knowing we were going shopping and wondering what the size would be (I was always a 10...heck, I even think I was a size 10 when I weighed 117 pounds in 9th grade and then since the wedding slowly crept to a 12 and damn, I'm probably a 16-18 or something now).

Anyways, we were out of the house around 10:30 and swung by Rahal's for their Holiday event. We picked up our free gift and we chose a nice set of Christmas bulbs decorated with Mercedes themes. I also wanted to pick up the hat Erik wanted and was going to give it to him as a gift from Brooklyn. Well, the case was locked and no one had the key because it's kept by the parts department and they were closed on Saturday....um, hello, you have your big event today...you would think people might be stopping in and buying things. Anyway, the girl told us they would just mail the hat. I asked about whether they would also mail the bill and she said that they would just mail it for free. Sweet...score a $35 hat for free!

Before we left, I grabbed some snacks and we headed to the mall. Store after store filled me with disappointment. We ordered an ottoman for the basement. We were going to just have the sleeper sofa, loveseat, chair and 1 ottoman but Erik would sit in the chair with the ottoman and I'd be sprawled on the couch and we realized we'd rather have 2 ottomans than a coffee table so we swung by Penney's first (did I mention I swear everyone was out shopping...it was SO CROWDED!) and ordered the ottoman.

We also ventured out to get our Holiday outfits (and outfits for our 10-year reunion next weekend) since we have B's Christmas dress already. I love the Sweater dress style as it seems to be very forgiving. After trying on the 10 sweater dresses and other dresses I picked out on my own and being highly disappointed, I tried on the one Erik found and of course, it was exactly what I wanted (a little more expensive than what I wanted to pay because we missed the doorbuster by 30 minutes....yet, my husband was able to assuage the female clerk in the men's department to ring up all of his purchases at the doorbuster prices....ugh!). I hate how my husband shops for clothes and has better style than I do. I also found a great new pair of knee high black boots in a more feminine style than the ones I already have (that have also served me well since 2000...holy crap, I had those boots since late 2000, fall of my sophomore year because I took them to England with me and I remember in the Euston metro station, the scary metro guy commenting "damn, girl, you have beautiful legs" in his British accent and watching Erin try to walk in them the night she borrowed them....um, yeah, I think I'm due for a new pair).

I love the pair I got...They are very similar to my old ones just with a nicer heel. They're still like 3-4 inches in height and they're the stretchy fabric that conforms to the calf to give that contoured look. I got them for a great price too (hey, I'm all about the sale and never pay full price and usually don't pay less than 50%).

Then we were on the quest for a thick belt and tights (which to me, is more like nylons but apparently Erik had leggings in mind). After refusing to pay $50 for a belt and $24 for leggings at Express, I found a fabulous pair of leggings at Forever 21 for $5 and a wide belt for $4...sweet!

We also bought the Hallmark Snowman/woman/baby ornament to symbolize 2009 for us and the Crosby ornament this year. I also bought 2 pairs of jeans today that fit.

We then went to Burlington and I bought a great knee length charcoal peacoat (I have a black butt length one but I wanted a longer one) and Erik bought a wool coat for himself. So, our Christmas outfits were officially complete! I can't wait to look like a family at church and over the holidays!

I went across the parking lot to Michaels and bought the wall gallery frames for mom for the living room. I also had my first experience with pumping in the car (twice!), once with batteries and once with the car charger that I bought at Burlington on sale. B slept well in the stroller while we were at the mall and had bottles throughout the day mainly because we were on an agenda to get stuff done. We got home around 9pm so it was a long day out and B got all bottles today. Needless to say, she hated nursing tonight and I fought with her for an hour. Um, I think I made a mistake by giving her bottles all day.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Um, yeah...long night for our FOUR WEEK OLD

So, we put B down to sleep at 11 last night and from midnight to 2, it was definitely a trying time. She was up every 10 minutes...she nursed from both breasts, had about 2 ounces from a bottle, was burped, changed, cleaned, rocked, bounced, swaddled, shushed, etc and yet still continued to scream despite my best attempts. Then, I think she finally fell asleep after I fed her again (she had to have had 6-8+ ounces over the multiple feedings). She was up again at 4 for a quick nurse and then up at 6:30 for another feeding. I brought her into bed with us on the Boppy Lounger where we both woke up at 9:30. My Facebook quote this morning was "Some kid out there who wanted a little sister for Christmas almost got their wish when I was ready to put her in a box and ship her to the North Pole at 2 am after two hours of B's desire to cry and not sleep." That about summarized how I felt this morning!

I was exhausted so I didn't get very far off the couch after nursing. I took a nap from 11:30 to 12:30 and B had a bottle for that feeding. Andrea left during this time...it was nice that she spent yesterday cleaning...actually quite nice b/c it's one less thing to worry about with the needs of a demanding four week old. Did I just say that? FOUR WEEKS! Oh my, what a pleasure it has been.

I finally made it to the shower at 2 and headed to our Homeowner's Association Board Meeting at 2:30 with B. I did catch Oprah at 4 and watched her bid her farewell when she ends her show in 2011. B napped on my chest and I just watched her for what seemed like an hour...I watched her different facial expressions while she slept...she smiles, curls her lip, frowns, furrows her brow, moves her eyes, winks, etc all while sleeping and it's just precious. We all have come so far in the past 28 days, 4 weeks. 4 weeks ago, we had this tiny little fragile being and now we have this still tiny, not quite as fragile baby that has more of a personality. Her eyes will focus on us and she stares intently while studying our faces. Every once in a while, we get a smile when we smile and always, you'll get a yawn from us when she yawns. She's just so precious and we are so fortunate, blessed and happy to have her in our lives!

Erik learned an invaluable lesson today about burp cloths and their purpose as he had a significant amount of spitup on his shirt and B, being the multi-talented infant that she is, was able to burp, spit up, hiccup and poop at the same time. Unfortunately, given Erik's position and B's already full diaper, we had some leakage which was also quite evident on his shirt....he looked like the classic dad and would not let me take a picture!

Tonight, I must share two Crosby stories (no, she's not the red-headed stepchild...she still sleeps with us and gets her fair share of cuddling...she just is over this whole B crying thing so just stays asleep whenever she fusses). The past few days, B's spitup has been more frequent and with increased quantities...Crosby takes it upon herself to clean up our burp cloths by licking up her spitup. I think she might gain a few pounds this year from all of her extra snacking. Then, Erik was doing some work tonight and I hadn't seen Crosby for about an hour...I go upstairs to change into PJs and I see a lump in the bed...yep, sure enough Crosby put herself to bed underneath the covers...oh, she never ceases to make us smile.

I'll close B's FOUR WEEK (can I say that enough!?!?) post by saying how much more I love Erik every time I look at B and see him in her and every time I see Erik holding her, I fall in love with him all over again!

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Clean House...

A little rough last night...we put her in the crib at 11:30 and we went to bed. She woke up at 12:30pm to eat and I gave her a bottle. She was up at 4 and nursed for a bit and went straight to sleep after I put her down. She woke up again at 6:30 and then she had two reawakenings so I just brought her to our bed with the boppy where we slept in until 9. She ate and was so messy that she got a bath which she enjoyed once I filled her tub up with water. I took a bath and then gave Crosby a bath. By this point, it's 11:30 and I attempt to straighten up the bedroom and put away the huge pile of clothes.

While B has been more alert and interactive, she's also been more fussy. After her 9am feeding, she had a significant spit up. She nursed at 11 and then spit up a ton that I don't know how she had nything left in her. After her 2pm feeding, I swear she spit up half her bottle. I just don't know what a normal spitup level is...is this too much???

Andrea cleaned the house today which was greatly appreciated. She took a little break in the afternoon and did some B holding while I finished up the house stuff.

Then I got ready to head to WPSA tonight. It was nice seeing everyone and having an intellectual interaction. B slept the entire time and as I was walking in the house, she was having a bottle...then, she went into a hissy fit where she was clean, fed, held and yet still continued to scream for 10 minutes. She nursed but didn't eat and just had comfort sucking. She's been asleep since then so hopefully she's down for a bit longer.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

It's so good...

to be home...after being in NC since Wednesday, it was great waking up in our own bed and having B in another room! Finally, at least some peace and quiet...even if it came in 2-3 hour blocks. She went down last night around midnight when we went to bed. She was up at 3 and 6 and again at 9 for the day. I nursed her at 6 and 9 but thank goodness Erik gave her the 3am bottle so I could sleep a bit.

I couldn't wait to weigh her (since I had the scare 2 weeks ago with her barely getting back to birth weight by 2 weeks) and she came in at 7lbs, 11oz on the kitchen scale this morning. Yay! 10 oz in 14 days so I feel relieved. I was so worried she wasn't getting enough milk breastfeeding (b/c she nurses for 30-40 minutes at a time and sometimes I swear I don't hear much swallowing).

She was up for about an hour at 9 and went back down to sleep. She's getting so much better with her head control. I'm so excited and sad at the same time. She's getting so big and she's so long and lean. She doesn't have a baby roll on her! Her cheeks are filling out a bit but nothing I would call baby fat. She's also stretching out more. She doesn't like to stay curled in a ball very long and this morning I found her arms hanging out of the swaddle. I would abandon the swaddle but I think the swaddle keeps her controlled and keeps her from waking when she flails about.

This afternoon, I thought I saw a smile on her when she saw me but it very well could have been gas. We just had a relaxing day at home today and enjoyed our own TV.

On a sad, sad, sad, very sad note and it's all my fault but I left my jeans sitting on the floor last night. I was downstairs with B this morning and came upstairs to put on jeans to go to Giant Eagle and found the crotch eaten from them. These were my favorite maternity jeans, the ones that fit the best, the ones I loved, essentially one of the 3 pairs of pants I have been wearing lately. Thus, this has now forced Erik to force me to go shopping on Saturday for jeans and pants that actually fit. I'm quite depressed about this. I am just going to tell Erik to grab things he thinks will fit and hand them to me and I'll try them...not caring what the sizes are and hoping and praying that the number will go down in the next few months (I also weighed myself this morning and well, I still have 20+ pounds to go to get back to pre-baby weight).

Andrea came this evening and she'll be staying until Friday to spend some B time and clean tomorrow. It stinks sometimes having so many people here but at the same time, it gives our family time with her and it gives us some time to do things around the house.

Anyways, it's a Top Chef night today and I'm super stoked!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Home Sweet Home...

B had a good night last night...she went to bed at 11:30, up at 2, up at 5:30 then up for the day at 8:30. I didn't mind waking up a little earlier than I had been b/c I got B fed and then we gave her a bath (boy, she's a messy eater...milk dried in her hair, in her little skin folds, EVERYWHERE). I took a shower and got ready and then I went through mom and dad's house packing us up to head back to Mars.


We were ready to leave at 11:30 and we headed to Big Lots, then went to BBB, TJ Maxx, and Ross's (I was on a quest to find some new clothes given the new, um, look to my body after having B...I was also on a quest to find newborn/size 0 patent leather black shoes for B's Christmas outfit). Then we were off to Michaels and then went to the mall. My quest in store after store came up empty for the shoes but I did find some clothes that I'd like to revisit this weekend with Erik to come up with some outfits for our reunion and Christmas.


Mom took me to Erin's for 4:15 and we got settled with her car seat, diaper bag and cameras (after we had loaded everything we needed for the house into his car at work). Kisa got there around 4:30. We had a great Steak Tips dinner and then just spent time enjoying each other's company. Erik came around 6:30 and we got B packed up and started to head out a little before 7. We picked up Crosby in Nicktown and headed back to Mars. B had a little meltdown just outside of Sarver so we had to pull over and feed her. We got back around 9:30 and unloaded the car....really, we're quite pooped right now and heading to bed!




We were in NC since Wednesday afternoon and we were ready to head back to our home.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Not at MiCasa...

Since we've been at my mom and dad's since Wednesday, I don't have photos ready for MiCasa Monday...alas, till next week again.


Last night, I fed B around 10:30-11:15, she slept until 2. We nursed until 2:30 and she was up at 3:30 and Erik gave her a bottle. She woke up again around 7:30 just as Erik was going to work. I brought her into bed with me (don't yell at me, she was swaddled, in a boppy with no chance of suffocation) where she slept next to me and Crosby slept cuddled into my back until 10:30 when we woke up for the day. She got milk everywhere so she got a bath this morning and was all clean and fresh smelling (I'm still trying to remember that unadulterated smell of the newborn as it's been replaced by milk and lotions). After her bath, she was all smiles for about an hour. Then she was all cuddles with grandma while I caught up on more emails.

I spent all afternoon just cuddling with B. She still seems so tiny and her weight gain had been slow early on. I can't wait to get back to the house on Wednesday to weigh her on the kitchen scale. Actually, while I enjoy being home and relaxing and spending time with the parents, I miss our house...I totally miss our king bed and having B in her own room. I love our house so much as it's perfect and we're almost to the point where it's exactly how we want it. We have a king bed and it's about the right size for E, Croz and me; at my parents' house, we sleep in a full bed (I don't know how any couple could sleep in a full bed). We also have been sleeping with B in a PNP in the room and I really can't wait until she goes back to the crib at the house b/c everytime she's up or squeaks or makes any noise or even screams during a diaper change, both of us are up with her. While I think cosleeping may be good for some people, B screams until she's changed for night feedings so I wouldn't be able to just reach over to a co-sleeper to get her and we've both failed at side nursing.

We had our baptismal session with Deacon Bern tonight. Heidi came down with pneumonia so she wasn't coming in tonight for it. Lauren, Erik and I went and it was about an hour. We still have to call to set the date but at least the prep stuff is done. We had to take a test and the three of us and our fierce competitiveness came out with having the loser buy ice cream at DQ (uh hem, Erik) and of course, Crosby got her kid-size vanilla. I started organizing items so that tomorrow morning, I wouldn't have too much to pack.

Friday, November 13, 2009

Three weeks old!

Wow...time is flying by...every day I see B changing so much. She's now spending much more time in this "quiet alertness" stage where she's awake for about an hour or so after feeding. I'm not arguing with this as I love having my conversations with her and watching her explore her surroundings. She loves looking at faces (as she can probably only relatively clearly see 8-12 inches in front of her so that's why she prefers faces since they're in that range). She's also getting much stronger with her head control and when burping, she'll hold her head up 10+ seconds. We're also doing a bit of tummy time and she's doing alright with holding her head up during that time but she definitely enjoys it more and does better when she's on her stomach on the Boppy.

She's still a petite, skinny mini who barely fits into newborn clothes but I think she's starting to fill out a bit more in her face. Her eyelashes are growing as they're now visible (compared to the barely 1mm eyelashes when she was born). We are going through diapers like it's our job and today, we changed 3 times in 15 minutes as she wanted changed before feeding b/c she was wet (again, the child who refuses to eat if she has one drop of pee in her diaper until she's dry...however, she'll sit in poop for an hour before deciding she wants to be changed).

At 3 weeks of age....
Estimated Diapers: 170
Estimated Wipes: 120
Estimated Feeds: 146
Estimated Bottles: 22
1 bout of mastitis
Feeding amount: 2.5 ounces

We've also done our first load of laundry at my mom's....Erik and I used to go every 3 weeks before we had to do laundry (we had enough clothes, underwear, etc and I wear scrubs for work so we didn't really need to do laundry that often) and now we're doing laundry like twice a week since she's been home from the hospital because she spits up, pees while I'm changing a diaper, etc. Her hair is filling in a bit on top...she's my little peachfuzz!

I still continue to find amazement with how much gas this little girl can pass....5-10 times during any given feeding with about 2-4 different bouts of poop while she's eating. She's definitely a 5+ dirty diaper and 8+ wet diaper girl per day.

I remember her first bottle at 5 days of age was 1.5 ounces and she spit up a good bit of it and we both think her stomach was still expanding to hold that amount. Right now, she's up to 2-2.5 ounces when she takes a bottle. She is starting to have a bit more spit up during breastfeeding than she's had in the past but I'm also producing more milk than I have in the past (in 1 pump session, I usually get around 4 ounces or 2 ounces after nursing). We just love her. I spent a good 30 minutes or so today just looking at her hands, feet, back, hair, fingers, toes, butt...just all of her parts as she's going to be getting so big so quickly and I want to make sure I remember these days as best as I can. She's also starting to become more of a messy feeder and we have to wipe her down practically after every feed since there's milk in her hair, ear, arm, chin (I love when there's a little bit of dried milk in the little triple chin she has going on), chest, etc...and this is despite a bib!.

I think Erik and I both agree that we just love being parents...we love seeing B develop and go through her stages. I think it's safe to assume we're out of the newborn stage and working toward the infant stage.

On another note, this morning I finished catching up on school stuff and benefits info and finishing up everything that I needed to for leave. Around 2, I went over to Cambrian Hills to meet up with family at Aunt Nancy's funeral dinner. After that, I was able to get the 4-generation photos with Baba/Pop-pop, mom, me and B. We then went over to Aunt Louise and Aunt Helen's to visit. After dinner, we visited with Ed and Joann and came home and were ready for bed.

On a happy note...two of my friends announced their pregnancies today...I'm so happy for both of them and so excited to hear of their good news!